Our family excursions to see the trains never lasted long enough. When the time came to leave I would always look around for one last detail that required my urgent attention, then another, then another, until the prospect of ice cream and the promise of a return visit in the near future finally lured me out of the museum and back into the bright daylight.
Today more than 20 years have past since my last family visit to the museum and I am there again, at night this time. The museum is celebrating the opening of a new exhibit of model and toy trains. It is as busy as ever I’ve seen it, but much more quiet than I remember. The excited shouts of school children, the admonishments of parents, and the cries of babies have been replaced by the quiet murmur of dignitaries and aficionados. The few children present seem to be on their best behaviour.
As I wander through the gallery I marvel at the sheet metal creations of centuries past and at the people admiring them with me. Volunteers are dressed in period uniforms and are more than happy to point out some oft overlooked detail. Guests bend over to observe close up the details of a Lionel or Marklin that catches their attention. Many of them have a glint in their eye and a faraway smile. I suspect they are recalling the playthings of their own childhood. After a few minutes I begin to realize that the toys don’t interest me as much as they do the people around me. The railroad toys I remember playing with are too recent to be museum material and there is nothing here that I remember from my own youth. These models, intricate though some of them may be, are but HO replicas of the iron giants on display downstairs.
I head down the stairs, wander about the reception a bit. I feel lost here; dignitaries, volunteers, train geeks far geekier than ever I could aspire to be all seem to know one another. There’s a buffet in the center of the roundhouse that hosts the reception. Its centerpiece is an ice sculpture. Of a train, of course. I take a snack and a glass of wine, spend a few minutes studying the display that details the creation of the exhibit. Behind me, a fat woman with two children in tow is heaping hors d’oeuvres onto a plate as if they were mashed potatoes. All around I hear snippets of conversation: “. . .wasted thousands of dollars. . .”, “. . .were cold when I got them. . .”, “. . .museum didn’t want it, so they. . .” I finish my wine and leave the reception area. I pass by the volunteers entrusted with preventing the guests from sneaking any food out and head towards the locomotives. The murmur behind me begins to die down. It’s darker down here than usual; the spotlights are on, but the ambient lighting seems not to be. I smell pine and tar and polish as I approach one of the locomotives. Its bright brass trappings reflect the spotlights, contrasting with its deep green paint. I reach out to touch one of its massive wheels.
Suddenly I’m hurled backwards in time. I’m still standing at this same engine, my hand outstretched. It seems bigger now, but not by much. There’s a sign in front of it and I am reading it out loud to my father who stands behind me with his hand on my shoulder. When I finish reading the sign there’s a brief silence. I turn around. “Dad”, I ask, “When we get home, can we play with the track?” He nods. Then the illusion is gone. Two men in gray suits are standing near me. They are discussing visitor numbers. I realize it’s time for me to go home, but as I step out into the cool twilight I decide to stop for ice cream first.